18 Oct 2006 01:37 PM

A New Low.

I have reached a new personal parental low. I've been under a lot of stress lately and the other day my son was driving me so crazy that I sent him away to my dad's house for a couple of days. I feel terrible about it. As soon as I made the distress call to my dad to plead my case and beg him to take my child away, I felt this overwhelming sense of failure as a parent. In fact, I even phoned him shortly afterward to say that I was okay and Ben didn't need to go, but the damage had already been done and my stepmom arrived later to pick him up. My house feels so empty without him. I've never really had a break from him, and it is nice to have some time to myself, but I miss him like crazy and I can't wait to pick him up tomorrow. The worst part is, it's all my fault. I let ther issues in my life impair my ability to mother a four year old and, as a result, I blamed everything on him and sent him away. Has anyone reading this ever felt like this? Am I really a bad parent? Please be honest. I think I could use some constuctive critisism at this point.

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