20 Oct 2006 01:33 AM

Thank god for family.

I have never been so happy to see my son as I was today. Evidently he enjoyed his stay at grandpa's because as soon as I got there to pick him up he gave me a big hug and ran off to get the wooden truck that he and my dad had built together. As he sat there descibing all of it's features and beaming proudly at it, I found myself doing the same to him. I'm glad he had the chance to spend some time with my dad and my stepmom. I think he was able to get the attention that he seems to need so much of and that I rarely have the chance to give him. Unfortunately I wasn't able to spend too much time with him today before I had to go to work, but I look forward to tomorrow when I plan to do something fun with him. I used to set aside an hour out of every work day for "quality time" with him, but lately I have been so busy with this whole house buying ordeal that I haven't had the time. Unfortunately that seems to be the most disposable item in my daily routine, so it's the first to go when something extraordinary comes up that I need some time for. The second most disposable is my housework, which has also been suffering some lack of attention. maybe I can incorporate "quality time" with vacuuming tomorrow and kill two birds with one stone. Then again, maybe not. That seems a little sleazy. I think I'll leave the housework for the weekend and just pray that I don't get any unexpected company tomorrow. I hate unexpected company. With the popularity of cell phones these days, there is almost no reason (barring an emergency), to stop at someones house unannounced. As far as I'm concerned, these people get what they deserve when they show up and I'm in my P.J's. Even if it is 2:00 in the afternoon. I used to get embarrased, but now I think it's them who should be embarrased. I've often told my mother that if she were to show up unannounced (or even on short notice), I wouldn't let her in the door. I grew up in an immaculate household. If my mother saw how I kept my house most of the time, she would probably dis-own (sp?) me. Anyway, my original point was that I don't know where I'd be if it weren't for family. I try not to rely on them too much, but there's no argueing that I would be lost without them. Over the past month, my father has been my hero (of course, being my dad, he always has been but moreso this month). He has worked day and night to help me organize this whole house thing, plus he came to my rescue when I needed a break from my child. When I was at his house today, he showed me some drafts ( I use that term literally, they weren't just sketches) of my new place. I know they must have taken him hours to do and I was really touched by the amount of work he's done for me lately. I wish I was better at expressing my appreciation. I really don't know how to convey how much it all means to me to him. Every time I try to show appreciation towards someone, I always feel that it seems insincere and I would have better off having kept my mouth shut. So, that's what I normally do (with the exception of a "thank you", of course). As a result, I think I often come off as ungrateful to the people who help me. What's worse is that that the more grateful I am, the more poorly I show it. It's to the point that I accept help very reluctantly. I really need to work on that. Any suggestions? I have always found "thank you" cards cliche and cheesy, but I guess they're better than nothing. Maybe I'll splurge and get my dad a really nice christmas gift. I know he wants a GPS thingy but I'm afraid he might be offended if I get him an expensive gift. I suck at this. Oh well. I'm sure I'll think of something..........My mum is another person who has been very supportive of me. She lives four hours away, so she's not as readily available for help as my dad, but since the day my son was born, She has bought him the vast majority of his wardrobe, as well as a nice bed for him and countless other lavish yet practical things for both he and I. She's even offered me a leather sofa set she's not using. Again, I need to find a way to express my appreciation without seeming insincere. I would really like to see her more often than I do. That's maybe the best way for me to show her how important she is to me. I'll have to plan a trip. Anyway, if anyone out ther is actually bored enough to actually be reading this, I love some suggestions.

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