A year ago today I watched as my life came crashing down on top of me. When my ex husband walked out the door that night I thought my life was over. How was I supposed to recover from something like that? How was I supposed to support my baby? Where was I going to live? What was I going to do? A million questions ran through my mind that night. It seemed like I was taking on the impossible, but with the help of family and friends I was able to pick up the broken pieces and put them back together a little bit at a time.
At first I wasn’t sure I was going to live through it. The pain was so intense, words could not do it justice. It’s not something you can truly understand, unless you have been there. I was so angry and hurt at everything that had happened. How could he walk away from everything when I had tried so hard to keep it together? I had stayed through things that no one in their right mind would stay through, how could he possibly leave? I didn’t know it then, but that night was the turning point in my life. I got my life back in the moment I thought I had lost everything. Within a few weeks I knew without a doubt that this was the right thing. I had no idea how miserable I had been, until I had seen the other side.
It took losing everything to find myself again. I found a strength I never knew I had. I learned to have courage in the face of adversity. I learned to stand up for who I was. I survived when everything inside me told me that I couldn’t. A year ago today, my life was in darkness. Today there is light.