Tonight, I am just thrilled, happy, and lovin’ life! I have been debating since New Year’s Eve (so over two months now) about if I should go back to school or not. I decided that I wanted to get a real job where I got benefits, raises, and all of those other “niceties” in life. I also decided that since I have always wanted to be a teacher, that I should go back to school to get my degree and become an elementary school teacher. But then I started second-guessing myself, wondering if what I was doing was right, blah blah blah, and it seemed like every time I had made the decision to do it, I would unmake the decision just as quickly. I am usually rather decisive when it comes to making big decisions (rather too decisive sometimes, quite frankly) and so this whole two-month debate thing was driving me up the wall.
Today, I went to a friend’s class (she teaches first grade, and has for 12 years) and just fifteen minutes into the class, as I looked around the classroom at all of the kids, I realized: This is where I am supposed to be. This is what I am supposed to do. I am meant to be a teacher. I almost started crying, I was so excited. Of course, in a classroom full of six and seven year olds, you can’t start spouting tears unless you’ve just broke your leg or something (the concept of “tears of happiness” is just too much for a six year old) so I managed to keep a lid on it.
It is thrilling beyond belief though, because the whole indecisiveness is so unlike me, it was going to run me into the looney bin here shortly. And I don’t have that much farther to go! 😉
So tonight, I am relaxing and enjoying the thought that after 26 years of living, I have finally figured out what I want to do with my life. It’s a great feeling.
I can’t be the only one who has struggled with that all important question: What am I going to do for the next 40 years? It’s a scary thought, and a bit overwhelming.
So I have to ask: What answers have you come up with? Leave your answers below.