06 Oct 2008 09:01 PM

We buried my Dad today

Today was a very tough day.  We buried my Dad today.  We arrived at the cemetery at 2pm today for the ceremony, which included a bagpiper, a bugaler, and an honor guard with a flag ceremony.   It was an awesome ceremony, however, extremely emotional and overwhelming.

They put his gravesite under a tree overlooking the ocean.  What a beautiful view he has daily. 

I still have trouble processing the fact he is gone physically.  Not spiritually, but not in a way we can chat like we did before.  I can chat, but I can't hear his response.  I am still sad - but I imagine, as time goes on the pain will get easier to manage.

How I miss him.  His wit.  His bantor. His sarcasm.  How wonderful his view on physical things was.  I feel like today was closure on some of it, but still not closure of other parts of it.

I am very sad.  I really really miss him.  And you know what's funny?  I didn't even get to talk to him every day. And now, I wish I had.  He had a way of making you feel better, you know?  Kind of like what some people find from a stuffed bear, or a blanket or ice cream or something else.  I found it reassuring when I talked to him on the phone or in person.  He was always telling me it would work out.  No matter what.  It would ALWAYS work out.  And you know what?  He was right. 

It will work out.  In the end, it always does.  And as time goes by, this too will work out.  But for now, I miss his enduring spirit. 

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