23 Jan 2009 04:59 PM

Our loss

It's been the worst week our our lives. My husband and I conceived our first child about 6 weeks ago and found out last week that I miscarried.

We are heartbroken. What began as brown spotting on Saturday turned into bleeding the following Tuesday. We spent that night in the ER, and have had 3 re-visits to my OB for repeat blood draws to check hormone levels. First they increased very slightly (not at a normal rate. Then, they plunged dramatically. The doc thinks they'll be back to 0 on this coming Monday's blood draw. 

I was still bleeding. I prayed that whatever was happening with my body would just be over. I knew I had miscarried but the bleeding was a constant reminder of what we lost. It finally stopped yesterday.

Now, I just want to feel like myself again. I am forever changed, I know. The world looks so different now. I feel sad and empty.

I thank God for my amazing husband. He has said and done all the right things...I have fallen even more in love with him through all of this. We will get through this. But for now, I am devastated.

Please keep us, and our little angel, in your prayers.

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