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17 Jun 2007 06:52 PM My baby boyOn April 30th at 10:15 PM my water broke. I was using the bathroom and I felt something weird coming out of the wrong area and I reached down to see what it was and as soon as I touched it, it broke. It was pretty gross. After the water broke I started bleeding all over the place and I started freaking out calling my husband, mother, and doctor. My husband came home immediately and took me to the hospital. I was transferred to Labor and Delivery by 1 AM and my husband took our baby daughter home because she wasn\\\'t allowed in Labor and Delivery and 1 AM is very late to be calling a baby sitter. I wanted him to be with our daughter. They wanted to wait till 8 AM May 1st to do an ultrasound because the baby had a regular heart beat and I had no pain. Everything seemed okay. Everything seemed normal...other than the water breaking and the bleeding all over the place. The pregnancy was normal and there was no warning. At 3 AM I felt I needed to go to the bathroom and called in the nurse to make sure I was gonna be okay. Instead of going like I thought I needed to, I passed alot of blood clots. They were huge and there was alot of them. I passed out on the toilet. I woke to lots more people in my bathroom helping me up and into bed. Then the doctor came in and checked me and said I had to be induced. I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy at 4:44 AM. He was alive but not for too long. He lived for an hour. I tried my best to keep him warm and comforted. I just didn\\\'t want him to be in any pain. I still haven\\\'t really let go and I don\\\'t know if I will ever be able to. We named him after my father. It was a name we had predecided on and it just didn\\\'t seem right to change it. We had him cremated so that we can keep his ashes with us no matter where we go. It seems so strange to look at the urn and realize there is a baby in there. My husband wasn\\\'t there for the birth and my husband never did see our little boy.  DK615617 (14620) 12 Oct 2007 11:49 AMI am so so sorry to hear what you went through. It is a terrible loss. I am glad that you got to hold your beautiful baby boy, he got to feel the loving arms of his Mommy. Now you have an angel watching over you. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.  For little Elza (2910) 19 Dec 2007 10:53 AMA bit delayed response, but I stumbled onto your post about your dream and chose to respond here. 1st of all - I'm sorry you did not get the support you needed for your son, Keanu. But for the short time you were given on earth with him, you did the best a mommy could do. Cherish your moments without regret for anything. About your dream - you must be a very spiritual person inside to have had that dream. It was probably a mother's premonition. It reminds me of when I was pregnant with my little Elza, I didn't tell anyone I was pregnant until I was about 24-27 weeks. When we lost her at 38, we did have a nice funeral and all of my relatives attended. I am happy for that now, but it was hard then. Anyway, my point is that my sister-in-law had a dream about me being pregnant and I was, but nobody knew. It was an odd dream, but it came out later and now I acknowledge it as the little baby having communicated her whereabouts, but that nobody would really get to know her either. Anyway. God bless and PM anytime if you need to talk. Lynne  DivasMomma (20907) 15 Jul 2008 07:09 PMI always saw the pictures of him, and didnt know you had his story up. (((HUGS))) That had to have been, and always will be, the hardest thing for you to go through. How many weeks pregnant were you?  Kara (21420) 15 Jul 2008 07:31 PMI was 21 weeks and 4 days. They would have done something more for him if he would have waited just 2 more days....but he would probably have had lots of problems. I'm not glad he died but it would be hard to watch him go through all the pain. It's tough no matter what happens I suppose.  bhoneycutt (2487) 07 Aug 2008 07:19 PMI am so sorry for your incredible loss. I can't even imagine how painful that was. I am sorry that your husband was unable to see little Keanu. That breaks my heart. I am so glad that you were able to comfort Keanu for the short time he was here. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. There are better days ahead and I wish you the best of luck with your new pregnancy!!! Kara (21420) 07 Aug 2008 07:27 PMThank you It is scary but worth the effort. I hope and pray and keep my fingers crossed we will have a healthy baby. paitence (70) 28 Feb 2009 11:38 PMOhhh, so sorry.... Trust all will be fine this time -:) Discuss this article
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