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Coping with Sexual Harassment and Assault (1) - Blog Entry

22 Sep 2007 01:05 AM

How am I supposed to accept what has happened. If I feel that this person is sabotaging my relationships and that I am hurting in side. Where can I turn to get help? I just have no one and all I wish for is to have understanding and never have to feel these emotions of loneliness and fear. Keeping things inside is so bad and I think I am going to have to do something about this. All the problems that I have considering how much I have discussed with counselors and how little they are prepared to help me find a solution. For three years I just talk with the same person and they never try to help me or to identify my problems. It is not like I tell her everything because I am too ashamed. I see a new therapist and I want to tell her everything.

Coping with Sexual Harassment and Assault (1) - Blog Entry

22 Sep 2007 01:00 AM

I need to find help for a problem that I have. My head is so confused and messed up over life. But when I consider everything I have been through and the state of loneliness that I am in I do not know what to do. When I was a teenager I had made friends with someone who had introduced me to smoking, cigarettes and marijuana aswell as alcohol. Within this group I also for the first time experienced pornography. It is all really horrible memories this situation. This nearly destroyed my life. I have gotten my life back on track but at the moment I am going through a lot of disfunction with regards to my life at university because of my own attitude and others as well. I do not know what I should say but when I was still living at home I found my self trapped on the internet surfing pornographic sites. It is still a problem say 3 to 5 years later. But I like to think that I am in control of myself. I spent so much time trying to just take my brain away from all the content that I was immersed in. Personally I feel wronged because all the information relating to pornography available on the net is not adequately concealed by the corporations that index web pages and make enormous profits out of the technology. Of course the reason why they make it available is because they do stand to make more money. But I am so sorry that things are the way they are. I was only a young adult and in my reality I was just trying to fill the gap in my life because I had become isolated and alienated from society because I had moved away from the city into a rural area and did not have any idea of how to cope being in a new environment. It had made me feel so sick and I really need to talk about these things with my therapist. I do not know what else it is that I can say except that I am having incredible difficulty trying to overcome my regressing emotions. On top of all those things I was given no direction by my family. They insist that I am sick but I am really lonely and I am afraid of getting hurt and rightfully so because I do open up and I get attacked down. This all seems so pointless and that I am just venting but at this point in time I need to find someone to rely upon and that I can trust. I wish I could create a situation where I can replace the bad memories with good ones.

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