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Don't Feel Like Going to Church? - Blog Entry

12 Jun 2009 12:48 AM

I can recall a time.. in fact I stopped going to sunday school and service because I failed to establish any kind of friendship and relationship with other christians there. It became too easy after all the "hi's" and "hellos" were over for groups within groups to form and isolate out those who were too quiet or too new to the group.

I can't recall a time in church that I was thankful for going. Maybe it's because I'm a male... church is predominately a female friendly enviroment. I can count on one hand the number of males who started an actual interesting and meaningful conversation with me that centered around the Bible or what we just read in "class".

Sorry... there are just some people that were never meant to go to church because of the clash of cultures that come into play. Not going doesn't diminish my interest in Jesus.

And frankly... the church could care less if I attend or not. This is not a matter of just "laziness"... I know going in that there is a good chance I will feel more beat up, ganged up on, and guilt-trodden that when I came in.. even my wife noticed the more somber mood after church service because I do take everything said to heart. Besides.. the music doesn't inspire me praise at all. I know this will certainly rub people the wrong way -- I understand how much they love their church... well I gave the church plenty of time to get to know me, serve me, allow me to serve them, love me and teach me to love them back, interact... nothing... No one had a clue what was going on, no one really wanted to seek my friendship (as if I was supposed to take the initiative? Just showing up dressed up on a Sunday was well outside my comfort zone so many times)

it didn't work out... sorry even in a crowded church were everybody is physically together, I never saw any evidence that they were "together".

I used to look forward to wanting to be around other "believers", now I don't, I'd rather stay home

Forgive me for upsetting you all.