I am still having problems with my reconstruction one side won’t close all the way and I was going back into surgery for another attempt at closing it. This is beginning to be ridiculous a surgery a month is crazy. I am ready to get this part behind me.
Unfortunately this closer did not work either so our last option is a skin graft to close it. Great more scars. The surgeon decided that he needs to remove a section of skin of about 7 inches on the inside of the right arm. I really don’t understand needing such a big piece of skin it was only a quarter size opening but I guess he is the doctor not me.
Luckily this last attempt worked but now I look like a patchwork quilt and I have a giant scar on my arm. I was finally done with surgeries. Now if you read the blog about the surgery you know that they removed the nipples so now I have what I like to refer to as Barbie Boobs. If you have ever seen a Barbie you know what I am talking about.
I was starting to feel back to normal and it was time for my three month oncology checkup. I am really getting tired of coming to these appointments only because all he does is a basic blood work up and then he checks the girls and says see you in three months. He still does not want to do any of the tests that I want. I still don’t know why he won’t it is not like they come out of his pocket.
I did make it a point to tell him that I was sleeping better and that my stress had decreased with the surgery. I was not doing the daily “girl check” that I had been doing before the surgery because of what he said during our first meeting. I told him again how much what he said that first day bothered me and made me feel hopeless.