One of my friends from high school just turned 41 and she is a breast cancer survivor too. Our birthdays are very close mine is next week. Have you seen the American Cancer Society commercials where celebrities are singing Happy Birthday?
I must admit I love those commercials every time that they sing I think they are singing to me. Now I know that it must sound a bit crazy, obviously I know that they are not singing directly to me but as a cancer survivor I tend to think every day is a special day as long as it is cancer free. Every cancer free day is like a little present that I get to enjoy.
Now I will admit this last week or so with all that is going on with my husband the light on my every day is a birthday candle is a little less bright because I have been really stressed with my husband’s current health crisis.
It makes it a little harder on me with three kids at home and I just had surgery on my foot last month and I am not supposed to be putting any weight on it. When I was originally diagnosed with cancer I had to go back in and get some lymph nodes removed. When they were removed it makes it a bit more difficult to use crutches because when I do my arm tends to swell and could cause lymphedema.
As an alternative to me using crutches I have this little knee roller (kind of like a scooter) where my injured leg is on this little scooter thing. Now the problem I am having is that when I got cancer I found out I was vitamin D deficient as apparently a lot of breast cancer patients under the age of 40 have. Now vitamin D is good for bones so because of that and the fact that sometimes chemo can weaken bones I may have re-broken the foot I broke last year. So I am a bit more stressed than usual I am waiting for my husband’s pathology, my kids are missing their dad so we are spending hours on end at the hospital, my foot is killing me and I am having a hard time sleeping.
I know I could use help but I am not good at accepting it and I am definitely not good at asking for it. Oh yeah did I mention I lost my job last week? Yep the hits keep coming.