Vegemite's commentsComments On: EverythingArticles Blogs Journals Photos created by: EveryoneVegemite Don't make promises that you can't deliver - Blog Entry05 Jan 2007 08:44 PM This happened to me alot. I am a member of AA and would arrange to meet a member who was helping me and she would often run very very late or not show and then I would get calls and text messages full of excuses! Many times, I could not get her on the phone and I just began to believe that I was a terrible person. I had a difficult year that year and most of the mental torment I went through was caused by this women's actions. Sometimes she would be reliable but so much damage had been done to me mentally through the times she wasn't, it's hard to remember the good things she did. In fact, it was 90% pretty awful, being shouted at, having the phone put down. I remember a really black morning when I couldn't take it anymore and thought that I would have to take my life. I thought this woman was okey because some other people I know spoke so highly of her so I just thought it might be me so I kept trying again and again. Sure she had good, logical, down to earth information for me, but it was hard to receive that because my head would be so messed up with her other behaviour. I am sure there are people out there that can help me without the mental rot. Do you worry about what other people think? - Blog Entry05 Jan 2007 07:59 PM I have been trying to overcome this social phobia most of my life and now nearing 40 I'm getting there. Life really does begin at 40. What is written here by Beth is so true. It was helpful to read because it's what I have been trying to do myself. I have been lucky to have people around me who have helped me conquer this phobia and I have had to work at it every day. I have to stop it before it spirals and Beth's positive sayings are the way I have learnt to do it. It wasn't easy and some days are better than others but I can at least lead a semi normal life despite my phobias. |
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