So for the next 16 weeks I kept up the same routine; Thursday chemo, Friday Neulasta Shot, Saturday and Sunday in bed, the next week included Doctor’s appointments, blood test and trying to be somewhat normal for my three kids and husband. The treatment cycle was hard with most chemo treatment plans you do three week cycles so you have the third week to feel almost normal. With my does dense cycle I did mine every two weeks so I did not get the third feel normal week.
Do you know what drove me crazy when I was getting my chemo? When I was going through this, getting poisoned through chemotherapy every other week, losing my hair, feeling so bad and someone one is standing outside the cancer center hooked up to their chemo infusion SMOKING!
Seriously, I am sitting here fighting for my life and this person is standing out there fighting cancer while doing a known cancer causing activity. Why would you bother doing chemotherapy if you won’t stop smoking? I personally wanted to take the IV pole that their chemo was hanging from and beat them over their head with it. It was like this person who I did not know, was slapping me in the face.
I would do whatever that I can do to help reduce the likelihood that my cancer would not come back. Why would someone with cancer put themselves through chemotherapy and not quit smoking? I am not going to pretend that quitting smoking would be easy but fighting cancer is not easy either. If you are not going to do everything you can to fight the cancer why put yourself through the treatments.
Chemotherapy is hard; I am not going to lie. It was probably one of the hardest things that I ever did but I always say that I would do chemo every day if that meant I would get to see my kids grow up, get married and have kids of their own.