While I love being a mother there are days when I forget that there was more to my life before this. I’ve come to identify with the title so much that I honestly can’t remember what life was like before I had Logan. I must have had so much more time on my hands! I remembered feeling like my life was so busy, then I had a baby and I found that I didn’t even know the meaning of the word! My life quickly became filled with diapers and feeding and rocking. My entire world revolved around this little baby. Every second of every day was doing one thing or another for him. Then he grew into a little boy and somehow I thought it was going to get easier. I was wrong! Our days are just as busy, even more so now that I am single.
There are some days that I wonder what life would have been like if I didn’t have Logan. Life would be so different. I’m not sure I even know who I am without him. He’s the first thing I think of in the morning, usually because he’s bouncing on my bed to wake me up. He’s the last thing I think of before I close my eyes at night. Every decision I make is for him. At times being a mother is hard, I’ve wanted to rip my hair out more than once, but it is so rewarding.
When I was staying home with Logan I remember people asking me what I did for a living. They were always so disappointed to hear I was “just a mom.” I felt ashamed at times. Looking back now I see how wrong that was. I am a mother. I have the best job in the entire world. I get to raise these sweet little children, the rising generation! What a blessing it is to be trusted with such a sacred job.
No doubt, there are days that will be difficult, especially when you bear the responsibility on your own, but you are blessing the lives of so many just by being a mother. It may not pay much, but I wouldn’t trade this job for the world! I am proud to say that I am a Mother!